Maryanne
by Maryanne
My best friend passed over last month. It was unexpected for me (we had a falling out six months prior, and both of us too stubborn to apologize). As you can imagine, my heart is broken because it ended the way it did, and me not being able to tell her how much she was loved. Anyway, I have a strange feeling about the whole thing; I've dreamed of her twice where we are both where we were when she passed--not speaking, hardly acknowledging each other. I'd like to know if there is any way she may still hold a grudge, or unforgiving energy towards me? I have meditated on it, and in my heart, I have forgiven anything and everything associated with my grievances towards her. I wish her only peace and love, and it disturbs me to think she may be holding on to old pain, especially if it is associated with me. I hope she knows how much I am sorry we did not make amends before she passed, and that I miss her terribly now.
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