John

by John Franco
(San Diego, CA)

I have been trying to get over a break up with someone who I thought was my soul mate. I still love him and I am having a difficult time. I think about him many times a day and it has created a fog in my life and I don't know where to go from here. There are times when I just cannot see the part of me that I am supposed to be. It was a five year relationship and we lived together for four years of it. When he told me he could not be in the relationship anymore it devastated me. I had just recovered from spine surgery and was released to go back to work in the tour industry. The tour industry in San Diego fell to an all time low and I am now unemployed. I continued to receive disability insurance because of my limitations and I cannot go back and work in the field that I used to work in before I became a tour guide. I feel lost and it has caused depression. I have been praying for an answer and meditating to hear what that answer is, but everything is foggy and the haze has not lifted yet. Help